Today, is a rather Subdued kind of day. I can’t shake this feeling I have felt since last September.
No matter what I do, I feel like a failure. Useless. Worthless. No one needs me.
I spend my money because the only place I can roam off to, if not home, is the shopping centers. Squander every dollar, every penny.
Somehow, I have not touched my emergency funds envelope I started this month for a class I’m taking.
An African American lady yelled at me- how I’m blocking the whole damn street- in her own words. She almost hit my car to make me reverse. Stubborn me just honked my horn not moving. Was I right? Was I wrong? Maybe that was a battle I should have walked away from.
But this is why I stayed. I sat there waiting for a parking space for like 5 minutes. I turned the correct way where the arrows show entrance. She just comes from the opposite side and knows I’m there. The lady walking knew I was there.
Yet, this lady in the car decides to ask her if she could have that parking space.
I felt invisible. I felt hurt. Why do people have to be so rude? And then she has the nerve to call me rude for I’m entering the area correctly and waiting patiently for a parking space when she’s coming from the other end and saying I’m blocking the street. I wanted to tell her lady, this is not a street. But I decided not to.