After posting my first blog on My Trending Stories, I had just made myself cry blogging on finding some pictures/videos on my Dad’s computer. It was a video taping in April 2014 when he somehow opened up the camcorder and started video taping himself. He was so amazed by it like he is when he finds something new. I wish I had that, too.
It was late at night judging by mom and dad talking. Mom asked him if she should wake me up, but he said to let me sleep. He always stays up so late reading Indian newspapers. I never knew he figured this out. And mom never told me either. It was sad watching and hearing him question what is going on and not knowing how he opened it. I could have taught him. I could have explained it to him.
What made me all teary watching was that there were other videos. Opening them, they all say February 2016. That was a month after he passed away. And all these videos have him wearing his oxygen tube. One video brought laughter because he fell asleep in front of his laptop for a little bit. He used to do that a lot. In the passed he used to say he was just meditating when I would wake him up. But this year, he grew weaker, and he kept falling asleep more and more. Even after eating two or three bites of his food at the kitchen table, he’d close his eyes and fall asleep just sitting there. Or he’d get up and walk to the couch. Sometimes I’d wonder how he could fall asleep on the couch the way he did. I wondered if his neck or back ached the way he slept. But he looked so peaceful. When I would wake him up he would look at me and then give me a slight smile. He wouldn’t say he was just meditating.
I am glad I stumbled upon these videos. I wish there were more. Sadly, there’s not much. But what is there at least my mom and I can cherish. I have saved it on a flash drive. I am sure my mom would want to see it. But I know it will bring her more tears. I want to tell her of this but I don’t want her crying.
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